I feel your skin beneath my fingers
In the palm of my hand
On the tip of my lips
You brush against me
The warmth of contact
Is this what it feels like
The embrace of God
My flesh sloughs off in chunks filled with maggots
I'm rotten and rancid way down to my core
Standing before you, a monster in motion
Reeking and twitching and cold like a corpse
You taste like home
I feel like old vomit
Squishing and squelching with every touch
What has possessed you to conjure such pity
Try to teach such a thing to feel tenderly loved
Your eyes are a refuge
A place I can run to
Mine ooze with mucus and grimy black sludge
How could I blame you for needing some shelter
A place you can hide from the horrors of "girl"
I'll shrink away now
Skittering chitin
I know what it's like
Exposed to what's me
How stupid it was to think it was fine to
Let you bathe in the stench and the scene
Your eyes need rest
Your nose and ears too
It's okay to dream of something better when you need to
Only fair for letting me dream of you
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